30 days of gratitude days 7, 8 and 9

Day 7
I am grateful for having WIC back into my life. To explain due to the wonderful government shut down, because all the nice gov. people with wonderful fat salaries couldn't get along or agree to disagree. Or whatever you want say about it. Any ways because of that WIC which is what we are relying to help us out with food was taken away until the shut down ended. Thankfully it did end and I now have 3 month of help with our groceries. Needless to say I am VERY grateful for it. It helps us out so much because it saves us money as well.

Day 8
I am grateful for having God bless me with a LOT of ease on our bills. I started my day with paying my bills, and as a caution I over project how much the bills are just to be safe and make sure that I have enough to pay them. Well God blessed me and eased my pocket book so to speak with a few of my bills being less than what I thought they were. For example my car tag which I projected to be about $80 was only $22, another payment which I thought was $46 was $43 and so. All together it saved my pocket book by a lot. After all said and done alot of bills were paid and I was able to have some money toward the end. Thankfully for that I can use some of that money to pay for other bills that are MUCH needing to be paid on. Not to forget Christmas gifts as well. Yes I am very thankful for that.

Day 9
Today I am grateful relaxation and Christmas savings. I am grateful for a weekend of relaxation and energy revitalizing. I was able to be lazy and not get out of my pjs until about 1:30 pm today. You may call it lazy but I call it relaxing and trying to gain my strength and energy for work on Monday. Tomorrow is going to be pretty much the sane because short of housework and laundry I dont plan to do hardly much at all. Onto the Christmas savings part. I went to do some light Christmas shopping with my mom today, and we only went to one place. We shopped at Target and with her coupons and the price reduction saved some money on Christmas shopping. One of the items I only spent $15 to $17 on. Another item I spent about $16 instead of $20. I owe my mom on $39 and I am not going to complain about it at all. Instead I am going to be very thankful for it and happy about it. I was also able to get some birthday shopping done for Riley as well. YAY team me lol. Well anyways that is all for now  I will talk to you tomorrow.

Day of thanks days 5 and 6

I was running behind last night and got so tired I forgot to post >< so I am making up for today and posting both days on here.
Day 5
I would like to say that today I am thankful for Jason's health being in manageable condition. Last winter Jason's health was in really bad shape, and I dont mean bad as in a bad cold or anything like that. I mean bad as in from Jan.to May there were a total of atleast six hospital visits, and a minimal of 18 breathing treatments. Lets also not forget the 10 inhalers that we went through. Those are not cheap at all. This fall and winter how ever his health is doing much better being that we have gotten rid of the main reason for his asthma flare ups and him floating back and forth from having pneumonia and bronchitis. The reason being that he was in a smoke filled building. Nope this year that issue has been eliminated. His asthma still acts up, but with the thanks to having a gym membership and us actually being able to use it of course and the elimination of the smoke in the environment he is doing MUCH better. :) So far so good and it is also by the grace of God that he is doing better as well. I am very grateful to God for that.

Day 6
I am grateful for having such very sweet residents to work with. I think that on my floor I have some of the sweetest people that I work with. Their smiles make me smile and that is the best reward that I could ever ask for. Today I was at work and talking to one and she had told me that I am her favorite aid. I have to admit that was the highlight of my night and it just made me smile a little more tonight. It also made me tear up because I don't think I have ever heard that from anyone til tonight. You know some of the best rewards in life for me are the ones that don't cost anything. I can honestly say that I have the most rewarding job that I have ever had before. Just seeing my residents smile makes me smile. I love them so much, and tonight I got the best reminder as to why I am there. I am very grateful to God for that, and could not ask for a better job :) Well I will talk to you later.

30 days of gratitude day 4

I am grateful for my job. I have spent months looking for a CNA job. After months of praying God has finally answered my prayers and blessed me a job opportunity to work Via Christi Villages. I love my job and could not ask for a better job. It is a place I love going to work for, the pay is just a bonus and none the less I love this job. I am very grateful for it and cant thank God enough for answering my prayers.

30 days of gratitude day 3

About 3 days ago I started a blog series called 30 days of gratitude. Today would mark the third day gratitude.

Day 3:
Today I am grateful for a day off. Since last Sunday I have been working non stop, with the exception of having Friday off. That's right I worked Sunday-Thursday and this weekend. Thankfully I am also off on Monday. I plan to be in full relaxation mode. What does that mean? That means with the exception of doing what I usually do in the day which is get the kids ready for school, take them to school, a little bit of cleaning and a few other things; I don't plan on doing anything but relaxing and spending time with my kids. I am exhausted and sore and ready for a break. Having tomorrow off is just simply wonderful and perfect. I am tired and darn it rest is just what the doctor ordered for tomorrow. Television with the girls, a workout to help get my butt back in shape and relaxing and doing things that I love to do. That in a nutshell are my plans for tomorrow. So yes, I am thankful for a day off work. I know that my kids are certainly going to be grateful for it. They get full blown mommy time after they get home from school. Complete with homework time lol. Well that is all for today. Come back tomorrow for day 4. :)

30 days of gratefulness Day 2

Yesterday I started a blog series called the 30 days of gratefulness. Today is the second day of the series.
 So with out delay here is day two.

Day Two-
Today I am thankful for my pet rats. I know that it sounds strange, but my two rats are very loving and sweet little guys. They are so lovable and are good little stress relievers. If I am ever stressed out I usually take them or more specifically Miko out of her cage and just let her roam around me and I just feel so much better after I hold her. Both her and Cutie Bug are lovable little nuggets. Jason was the one that originally talked me into having a rat as a pet. For that I am very grateful to have them as pets. They are just so lovable and very sweet little ones. It started out as having just one rat named Bella, then we thought it would be a good idea to give her a friend. Well shortly after we thought it would be a good idea to have three so our kiddos could each have one. Well the original 3 were Bella, Miko and Tink. Well sadly Bella passed away so we got Cutie Bug to fill her spot. Then shortly after Bella passed Tink passed. So now it is just down to having Miko and Cutie Bug. I am fine with that but Miko is a sweet heart and Cutie Bug is slowly warming up to people. Sometimes my husband and my kids tend to pick the most shy little guys but none the less they are still quite lovable. I can tell because Miko will give you kisses or play with you hair if she likes you and Cutie will sort of nibble if she wants to give you lovings. Well that is all for now. I will talk to you later.

30 days of gratitude

Okay, so last year I started this and I didn't succeed in continuing it. So I am going to try again this and in all honesty I have a lot to be thankful for this year.

Thirty days of gratitude Day 1.
Today I would like to say that I am grateful for my family and friends. My family and friends are my base support system. They have been through both my successful and stressful times. Whether they here me complain about why I am stressed or they hear me rant about something I am proud of. It doesnt matter what it is. An example would be when I was getting off of work the other and I was so frustrated I  wanted to scream. Jason was listened to me rant about how frustrated I was. Another example would be when I got CNA license I was so happy and over joyed he could tell I was bursting at the seems lol. I would not shut up about how proud I was that I passed the state test and how it felt like I was handed a $500 check so to speak. I am just so grateful for my family and friends and they know who they are. I am grateful for my friends because it was for one my friends giving me the kick in the butt I needed to take a cna class I would not be where I am working at today. She would always be telling to me sign up for a cna class and that it would help out so much. I can not tell you how right she was, and I am forever grateful that nudge. Another reason I am grateful for my friends is that I have a friend who has been there for me no matter what. For example I called her up around 6:30 in the morning because I couldnt sleep and she helped me get my mind off what was stressing me out just by talking to me. We are each others prayer buddies. If I have a prayer request she will pray for me or help me find a verse to help me. If she needs a prayer request I will do my best to pray for her as well. God has blessed me with wonderful family and friends and for that I am really grateful for them all.
That is all for now, I will talk to you again tomorrow for day 2.

Annversary and then some

This is a really hard post to write so I am going to do my best. There is a one year anniversary coming up in the next ten days of a death of one my family members. This one is particularly difficult because I was informed of another death of a family a couple of days ago. With all of this on my mind it makes its a little difficult to think or for that matter not space out a bit. Last year my cousin was killed this is the anniversary of which I am speaking of. I would like to say it was a more pleasant anniversary but sadly it is not. Adding to that I was not able to attend her funeral last year either. Along with that I am still saddened by it and to a point still angry about it.  I still check the news site to see if there is any other news on it. I am still pray to have God help forgive the person who did this to my cousin, and I still pray that God gives her parents peace. It may not be aloud but I do. I tried to write a blog about it after happened and I couldnt even find words. I know I remember not wanting to give the person the satisfaction of my words. To be honest it was not exactly easy to find words to write about it now. On that I am going to exit this blog with a note that I added this video to this because this is how I am feeling at the moment.

update

Hello all I just thought I would send you and update to let you guys know what has been going on as of recently. So here it goes. From late April to mid May I went back to school full time to get my CNA license. I know I already a degree in Digital Media, but i thought I would get my CNA license and find a job as a CNA while I figure out how to market myself in the Digital Media field. Well I busted my butt prayed constantly and studied and worked really hard in that class. By the grace of God and hard work I passed both the class and the state test. Let me tell you it was NOT easy in the slightest. Then in June I received my CNA license in the mail :):):):):) To me it was like getting a huge miraculous bonus check in the mail. Well from May to August I was looking hard core to find a CNA job. Again it was NOT an easy thing to do. I had applied everywhere I could and have been to two job fairs. After a lot of praying and again God's wonderful grace I was able to find a job at Via Christi. I have to be honest, I didnt think I would get a job there because I did not think the interview at their job fair went well. That is why I think that the grace of God helped me out. For that I am VERY greatful. I start on Monday and I can finally get out of this job I am in now and the rut I am in as well. Well that is all for now I will try to write more when I can bye all.

Be excellent to each other

Yes I named my blog title off of a Bill and Ted quote. Don't worry I am not devoting this blog to the movie. The reason for it is that my job has put me in a position to where I have felt that I must recite their first rule in the movie. No it is not the quote party on. It would be the quote Be excellent to each other. In the past few weeks I have had a nice feeling to where I think my supervisor is wanting to get rid of me. Sometimes I wish that she would follow the rule be excellent to each other. Sometime I feel that none of the leads or supervisors follow that rule. It seems to me that it is only about who can kiss more but than who or who can disregard the others feelings. But that is only how I feel. To me they dont treat their employees fairly. I know that every company has their favorites, but as it stands to me there are more favorites and "clicks" then anything else. For this I felt compelled to quote  the Bill and Ted Rule #1 Be excellent to each other.  I think that its a very good rule for both in the work place and outside of the work place. There is a bible verse that is similar to it. The verse it Ephesians 4:31-32- Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words and slander as well as all types of evil behavior. Instead be kind  to each to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you. I know I need to follow that rule as well. In fact I am trying really hard to follow that rule on the bible verse. It is a work in progress but eventually I will get there. That is one thing i am asking God to help me with. Along with the Golden Rule as well. The Golden rule states treat someone as you would like to be treated. Another rule of thumb I am asking God to help with. As you can see I am far from perfect and I need a lot of work as well. That is why I am constantly asking for God to help me because as of lately I am needing his help with those things among other things. With God helping me I will get there. Anyhow I am going to end my blog for the day. 

the Be Excellent to each other quote is credited to the Bill and Ted Movies (Bill and Teds Excellent Journey and Bill and Teds Bogus Journey)

how i have been feeling lately

As of lately I have really been feeling frusterated, stressed, conflicted, angry and a mix of other emotions. This all stemming from a whole bunch of issues and there are a couple that I dont really want to talk about yet on hear. There has been so much going on with me technically pulling in two jobs, and donating plasma just try and keep this household running financially. I have been praying like crazy that God helps me with this because I can not do this alone. There is also stress at home which to a certain extent is really starting to get to me and this is probably going to be another night where I cant sleep. I am also praying that God helps me with this too. My 1st job has me looking over my shoulder every day worrying when they are going to fire me. As they have been firing people left and right. I just dont know anymore, I am so frustrated and just stressed along with a mix of other emotions at the moment I just dont know anymore. At this point I am not sure what I am going to do. Then there my husband who for the past 4 times has been sick. I honestly do not know what to think about that right now, other than I think that its in his head and something is bothering him that he wont tell me. I know he didnt catch it because no one here has had his crud...I am so frustrated with him and not taking care of himself the way he should it just ticks me off. Again its a lot of stuff that is constantly adding to this. Sometimes it puts me to tear I am so frustrated, but I dont know what to do about it at all. Any how I thought music would help fill the gaps so I am going to post a couple of videos that are pretty much saying how i feel as well. They will be mostly sign language but you can hear them.