how i have been feeling lately

As of lately I have really been feeling frusterated, stressed, conflicted, angry and a mix of other emotions. This all stemming from a whole bunch of issues and there are a couple that I dont really want to talk about yet on hear. There has been so much going on with me technically pulling in two jobs, and donating plasma just try and keep this household running financially. I have been praying like crazy that God helps me with this because I can not do this alone. There is also stress at home which to a certain extent is really starting to get to me and this is probably going to be another night where I cant sleep. I am also praying that God helps me with this too. My 1st job has me looking over my shoulder every day worrying when they are going to fire me. As they have been firing people left and right. I just dont know anymore, I am so frustrated and just stressed along with a mix of other emotions at the moment I just dont know anymore. At this point I am not sure what I am going to do. Then there my husband who for the past 4 times has been sick. I honestly do not know what to think about that right now, other than I think that its in his head and something is bothering him that he wont tell me. I know he didnt catch it because no one here has had his crud...I am so frustrated with him and not taking care of himself the way he should it just ticks me off. Again its a lot of stuff that is constantly adding to this. Sometimes it puts me to tear I am so frustrated, but I dont know what to do about it at all. Any how I thought music would help fill the gaps so I am going to post a couple of videos that are pretty much saying how i feel as well. They will be mostly sign language but you can hear them.