Annversary and then some

This is a really hard post to write so I am going to do my best. There is a one year anniversary coming up in the next ten days of a death of one my family members. This one is particularly difficult because I was informed of another death of a family a couple of days ago. With all of this on my mind it makes its a little difficult to think or for that matter not space out a bit. Last year my cousin was killed this is the anniversary of which I am speaking of. I would like to say it was a more pleasant anniversary but sadly it is not. Adding to that I was not able to attend her funeral last year either. Along with that I am still saddened by it and to a point still angry about it.  I still check the news site to see if there is any other news on it. I am still pray to have God help forgive the person who did this to my cousin, and I still pray that God gives her parents peace. It may not be aloud but I do. I tried to write a blog about it after happened and I couldnt even find words. I know I remember not wanting to give the person the satisfaction of my words. To be honest it was not exactly easy to find words to write about it now. On that I am going to exit this blog with a note that I added this video to this because this is how I am feeling at the moment.